I thought that at least my family would like a weekly update, and anyone else that cares to read my blog about being a happy mom and wife!
My favorite quote that I found when I first learned that I was pregnant, this quote has really stuck with me. I already consider myself a mom because I am currently growing my baby inside me. I am experiencing things for the first time, because I am a mom.
"When someone is pregnant, she is not "expecting a child"- she already has one. She is not "going to be a mother"- she already is a mother. The baby is not "on the way," the baby has already arrived. If we are going to change the way society treats unborn children, we have to change the way we talk about them." -Frank Pavone ( I saw this on facebook posted on The Family- A Proclamation To the World page)
This week I have hit week 15!! This week baby is the size of a sweet, yummy orange.
Fun fact: this week the baby can now wiggle it's fingers and toes and is starting to make breathing movements. I love these little baby apps that I have (yes I have three different ones because they are awesome!), it's fun to get an update on our baby and what new things it is learning for the first time, week by week.
Even though our baby is still pretty tiny, I am starting to show, more than I thought I would by now haha which brings me to my biggest pet peeve of being pregnant.. I don't have a lot of pet peeves but this has bothered me. I hate how girls continually compare themselves to one another. I thought I would get a break from this once I was pregnant because you have a cute little belly and no one should care how much you gain or what you look like because you have human life inside you- coolest thing ever. But.. I have learned that it still happens. I am so excited to have a little bump and for it to just get bigger from here on out but I am sick of the comments of, "oh, well I didn't start showing until I was 6-7 months pregnant..." -good for freaking YOU! Stop comparing my current bump to your past one!
Anyways, our last ultrasound was at 13 weeks and it was still too early to tell the gender but the baby was jumping and moving all over the place.. I'm guessing that was from the Dr. Pepper I drank before my appointment :) The baby looks healthy for it's size, it's heartbeat is very fast which is great!
Our next appointment is on September 29th and we get to find out the gender, we're SO excited! Wes and I have both felt that it is going to be a girl. I have had dreams that we're having a girl and dreams that we're having a boy. We really don't care either way, we just pray for a healthy baby! But with that being said.. all I have right now are girl things, they just seem to be the cutest when I see things out and about.
Also, lets talk about cravings and ravenous hunger! Holy crap.. when I was in the first 12 weeks of pregnancy I felt SO nauseous all the time but mainly at night. I could hardly eat anything. One minute something sounded good and literally the next minute it didn't. I only threw up a good handful of times and I'm super grateful for that! Now that I'm not feeling as sick (except for early mornings right after I drink something) I've been craving hella things. I crave In N Out almost everyday and I seriously have to fight off the urge daily, however, sometimes, like a couple times a week, the baby wins. The baby must need iron or something from that meat. I also crave random things. Like the other day I was craving Alfredo and pizza muffins from a restaurant in Chandler.. I'm embarrassed to say that I definitely drove a half hour out of my way to go get it!
Most of the time my body does not feel like my own, it's the baby's body now and most of the time I am completely ok with that! I used to be an avid runner and at the start of my pregnancy I could not do any exercising because one, it would make me feel even sicker and two, I was just too dang tired.
Now I have started fast walking on the treadmill a couple nights a week. I'm still incredibly tired and my legs sometimes feel like a TON each but it feels good to be moving again even if it's not running.
This blog is meant to be real, no sugar coating here. I won't get too graphic or too detailed about some things because that would be just gross but I want to look back at this time and remember the bad, the good, the ugly, the beautiful and the crappy times because pregnancy is all of those every single day.
Like today for instance, I love love love spicy food. I had some hot cheetos today and baby didn't seem to mind them at first... well about two hours after I hate some they came out with a fiery vengeance. Needless to say, baby probably didn't enjoy them as much as I did. Also sleeping on my left side has become the only way I can sleep. Any other way and I'm up all night in cramping pain.
I think I have a bladder the size of a pea and my tiny baby likes to squeeze it in her hand every 20 minutes to let me know it's time to go to the bathroom. JK I know she's not squeezing it but that's what it feels like. I drink so much water these days that I seriously have to go ALL THE TIME! Wes makes fun of me because of how frequent I go.. Well it will only get worse from here as the baby grows and that's ok.
All of these things I am grateful for because they are signs that I am pregnant- something I have wanted my whole life! I am grateful for the bad, the good, the ugly, the beautiful and the crappy times because those times are bringing me closer to motherhood. There is nothing that I wouldn't endure to become a mother- the greatest joy in this life- besides being married to Wes of course :)
Background on us and our baby from the beginning...
After my surgery in May, my OB knowing how important having a family is to us, told us that it could take us many years to become pregnant and that it wouldn't hurt to start trying now.
Well, our little miracle came a lot quicker than we thought it would! Our first reaction was "scared out of our minds" but then after a day we became so excited and that excitement continues to grow every minute.
To say we feel blessed to be parents to this sweet baby is an understatement! It has already been 15 weeks of enjoying this baby and what motherhood/pregnancy has brought so far and we have been on a lot of adventures with our baby so far! I'll share some pictures below of some of the fun we have been having together, me, Wes and baby Clouse.
Baby Clouse at 5 weeks. This was a little less than a week after we found out we were pregnant. We went to Washington DC and New York for about a week and a half and the day we got home I took a test, ran into the kitchen and showed Wes. We were both shocked and almost didn't believe that it could be true but we are so grateful that it is!
Baby Clouse at 6 and 1/2 weeks old.
The baby is on the left and on the right is another cyst I developed after my huge one was surgically removed. At this point the cyst was developing quickly and we didn't know what was going to happen. Luckily by my next appointment at 9 weeks, the cyst had gone away on it's own. Rare and miraculous- answer to our prayers!
Baby Clouse at 9 weeks old in womb
Our baby has the cutest nose!!!! I stare at this ultrasound daily haha
Baby Clouse's little hand! (both hands had all 5 fingers!!)
Baby Clouse at 13 weeks: At our 13 week ultrasound we got to see our baby move so much, it was awesome! It kept jumping and wiggling around. It had it's hands up covering it's face- that was the cutest thing. It's so crazy to see that a life is actually inside of you, it seems too incredible to be true. I'm so happy that I get to experience motherhood, it is already the best thing that I could be in this life (plus a wife to Wes, they are the most important roles)
Baby Clouse at Cibeque Falls, AZ
Baby Clouse at Bear Canyon Lake, AZ
Baby Clouse at the Grand Canyon, South Rim, AZ; this was our baby annoucement to the world!
13 weeks pregnant
Baby Clouse's first camping trip; White Mountains, AZ
Baby's first camping experience was good except for the third morning when we had a huge breakfast. We had eggs, bacon and french toast.. I don't think the baby liked all the grease or she just wasn't having it because 10 minutes after I ate, I threw up about 5 times! I thought the "being sick phase" was over but it can still get ya at seriously any time! Pregnancy does crazy things to your body!!
Wes is already the most loving, caring, kind and mindful husband. I know he will be all of those things and so much more as a dad. He already talks to my belly and gives it a kiss every night. Next week baby will be developed enough to start hearing us! Wes is super excited for that.
I love my husband and the little baby growing inside me.
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